First of all, congratulations. We are so proud of you for finally wanting to get better. Not many people who have depression even have the courage to go seek help. We know how hard it must have been and while we do not really have the experience of being clinically depressed, we do know what it feels like to be down and where it seems like everyone is out to get us and wants us dead. And while it had been brief, it was still awful. So to have that kind of feeling and mentality for years and years and still make it this far? That is amazing. You are going to get better, alright? Getting better starts with accepting it. And the next step is seeking help and maybe getting some depression therapy in Alexandria.
There are a lot of people out there that can help you. Not just therapists, but also some groups that have the goal to fix us, broken people. Because they have to remind us lot that we are not alone in the world and it, not just us that have this problem.
We can fix this together and we can get through all of this just as long as we are all pretty much still here and still alive. There IS a possibility of getting better. And it might not be easy and it might not happen in a single night.
But that is what healing is. The greatest thing and the most beautiful thing about the slow process is that when you finally do leap over and find yourself in a healthy condition and that you are finally happy, it would be a really big deal. We know that not everyone can be healed.
As sad as that is, we know that and know people that have succumbed to it and never returned to us. It hurts. It hurts for the ones who left us because what could have been the thoughts that ran through their heads before they took their own life?
And it hurts for us because we have been left behind. Our thoughts would go along the lines of Were we not enough for them? Did we not help at all? Were we really that useless and worthless that they did not even think of us before they pulled the trigger?
See? It hurts for everyone. Depression hurts for every single one of us and we have to put a stop to it before more families get broken due to it. They cannot help it if they got mentally ill due to their circumstances or because they really were born with it.
And we cannot help it if we are simply not enough for them to make them stay with us. As much as it hurts us, we have to let them find their own healing method. We need to let them go so they can take care of themselves.
And sometimes, a new area and new people could do just the right thing for them. We cannot do everything and it is frustrating that we cannot do anything more but maybe this is for the best.